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A Sigh Of Relief

{Insert long exhale} I am so glad that today is over with! I am happy to report that Lia's surgery went very well. Her surgeon, Dr. Lofland, said that he was very pleased with the outcome of her repair. He also informed us that he discovered why her heart was not accepting the shunts. During utero, Lia's blood was flowing into her lungs, and not flowing back out, which in turn caused some muscle damage to the vessels stemming off her pulmonary artery (there is more to this explanation, but I didn't fully understand it myself). In "mommy terms" she has a very unique anatomy to her heart, and this was her way of saying that she didn't want a shunt (no matter how many times we tried) she wanted her full repair, so that's what she got! I am also happy to report that she is not on bypass at this time! Her heart rate, blood pressure, and oxygen saturations are all good. In fact, in the hours since her surgery her o2 stats have been at a perfect 100%! Keep in mind, that a week ago, our goal was to keep her o2 stats above 55%, so this is a huge change!


When I woke up this morning, I felt a calm about myself. A peacefulness. I was no longer nauseous or scared. I felt God's loving arms around me telling me to stop carrying this huge burden on my own shoulders and to let Him do it. For some reason, I knew everything with her surgery was going to be ok. I knew that Lia was in God's hands, and that He was going to take good care of my little girl. This peace stayed with me throughout the entire day. Of course, I had tears as I kissed her head this morning and said goodbye to her (for the 3rd time), and watched her be wheeled away into the operating room, but it was a different feeling than before. I felt confident in her outcome, confident in the doctors and nurses taking care of her, and confident that God had everything under control. I walked into the waiting room without sobbing this time. I was a different person. I was ready to take on the day, and give it all to God. Like I have said before, I believe in the power of prayer, and the amount of prayer that we have recieved has been remarkable. We are on tons of church prayer lists, including one in Greece even! (Thank you Sarah), we have friends and family all over the U.S. praying for us too. Thank you to all of you who have said prayers for Lia, for our family, and for the medical staff taking care of her.

We are not out of the dark yet...these next few days of recovery will be very crucial, as Lia's heart learns how to beat differently than what it has been used to for the last 9 months, and as her body begins to regulate itself, balance itself out, and get her back on track to being a healthy newborn. Please continue to pray for us. We have been told to expect about 10 more days in ICU (if all goes well), and then we will be transferred to the floor, until she proves she is ready to go home. So needless to say, our time here is not over yet, but today is day 1 of a new Lia. A new lease on life, and I am so eternally grateful for that.

In other news, we handed Jack off, yet again, to my in laws this time. He will be spending the week in Fairbank. He's excited, but I of course, am sad to see him go. I CANNOT wait until we are all together again, living normal lives (if thats possible?) and putting all of this behind us. Thank you to Maury and Diane for helping us out by for spending almost a week here with us, helping us to take our mind off things, and taking good care of our sweet boy while we take care of things here.

My parents are still here in KC, supporting us, and Lia. We are so thankful to all of our family who traveled to be here with us today, and to all of those who coudn't be here, but still supported us in prayer.

I am tired, and ready for bed. Good night, and thank you for checking in, and remembering us. Please continue to pray for Lia's recovery, and for strength for Ryan and I.

Ashley

Comments

Tammy said…
I was so excited to check-in on your blog and read this awesome, uplifting news! God is so good! We are so grateful and rejoicing right along with you. We'll continue with the prayers, and FYI - Adam's fiance, Stacy, has been praying for Lia from Greece also! Rest well...you sooo deserve it. What a day the Lord has made :)
Jen O said…
Amazing!! I am SOOO happy for you guys and for Lia! Our thoughts will continue as you walk this journey with your strong, beautiful girl by your side! I hope that you are getting some rest and that you truly do feel some relief in knowing why things weren't working. I know, as a mom, that would definitely help me understand the previous situations. Keep staying strong and we will keep sending prayers your way! With love from the Osburn's and your Linwood Family!!!!
Ashley Amara said…
I have been reading your posts, my heart goes out to you and I admire your strength! You have a beautiful family, Ashley #3! Sending prayers for Lia from North Carolina!
Jackie said…
Hi Ashley:
Wayne and I are so happy to hear that Lia's surgery is over! She does sound like a little fighter and what a cutie! I have sent your blog to good friends who moved from Pella to Wichita 2 years ago. They are great prayer warriors as well, so will add another link to your prayer circle. Wayne and Jackie Whitham/Pella
Anonymous said…
I caught glimpse of your blog yesterday and sat down and read the WHOLE thing. At times I wanted to cry with you, at times I felt your joy. I am so happy to read about Lia's surgery, it sounds like it went very well. I know the next week will be crucial and I will continue to pray for your family's strength as well as tiny Lia's. May God bless your little Lia and watch over her caretakers and family.
Julie T. said…
What a mighty God we serve! Praising Him for His excellent Greatness!
Pam the Realtor said…
Such a huge relief! Can only imagine what you are feeling. Thought about you so much yesterday and was happy to see a few Facebook updates so I knew things were going well. I am sure it's going to be another long 10 days or so, but somehow I just feel better about this situation. I am sure there will be setbacks, as there always are, but I also think you will be home as a family before you know it. Hugs!
Debbie Brooks said…
Hi,
I am Debbie Brooks. My mother-in-law was Violettes sister. I know it's confusing but just wanted you to know you are in our thoughts and prayers here in Nebraska. I talked to Jan last night and she filled me in on the latest.Keep your positive out look and faith and all will go well.
Anonymous said…
So happy to hear the update, Praying for a speedy and uncomplicated recovery. Thanks for sharing so much. The Cherry's
Sheri Spencer said…
I wait for your wonderful blogs. Lia looks beautiful swollen and all. I can't wait to meet her. God has blessed you.

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